Jobs and Colds

I actually blogged yesterday, but right as I hit "publish post" our internet went all screwy and I lost my post. *Sniff, Sniff.* Guess I need to start copying the text before I post so that I can paste it back in if I need to...

Anyway - I've got a horribly bad cold. I can hardly breathe. And I don't want to breathe through my mouth because my throat is already dried out and it just makes it hurt more. My brain feels kinda cloudy, too. Not fun. But I guess I just need to suck it up! =)

Some good stuff has been happening lately... John finally emailed Uncle Steve about jobs at Dayspring and ended up applying for one that was open. I don't know if he'd actually get it or not (it wasn't REALLY his line of work - not sales or anything), but it would be neat to have the option. Melia called him today and left him a voicemail saying that she wanted to talk to him about the phone-a-thon and a possible future working here. I think that would make John so happy to have a job here. I know it's something he has a passion for. BUT at the same time, it's nice where he is now because he can work overtime and get paid for it... I dunno. I started crying last night over the whole thing (moving, staying, whatever). I feel bad because John said something about applying at Dayspring just to make me happy. I don't want him to think I'm unhappy. I just don't want to be stuck here forever and I feel like if we have an opportunity to move or look at other options, we should. But then at the same time, I don't want to do any of that because it's just more stress... And what happens if we move/get pregnant (don't know which order) and it messes stuff up like insurance!! Ick. I don't know what to think anymore. And having a cold doesn't help - it hurts to think too much.

A New Year...

So pretty much everyone has been asking us when we're going to be having kids. I wish I could tell them!! John and I decided that I would stop using my birth control in December... So I've been off of it for about almost two months now. It's really exciting to be "trying" but it's also been a little nerve wracking. I'm really scared that it's not going to be an easy thing for us, but I'm just trusting God and putting it in His hands. I know that he knows the best time for us - and as long as we're waiting, we can pay off some debt! I would love to be able to stay home after we have kids, but as of now, that is not even a remote possibility. John has a really good job, and it pays well, but it just doesn't pay enough to cover all of our bills. Once we get my car paid off (a year from October) and get rid of a few credit cards, we might be able to, though.

A lot of other stuff has been going on over the past few months, too... But it's all stuff that would take forever to write, and I'm sure that most of it will come out in the day-to-day journaling over the next few weeks/months. So I'll just let it be for now.